I always get really really down around this time of year because of my grandma’s death and it’s just hard I miss her so fucking much and she also never got to see me be successful she died before I started doing makeup and it just sucks because every time I do a makeup on my dad to turn him into some creature I think of how much she would have loved that and how she would make fun of him. She also would get magazines and write notes in them and it would have meant so much to give her the magazine a photo of my dad in a creature makeup I did was in she would have lost her mind seeing a picture of her son looking like an asshole in a magazine she would have loved it. I just really miss her.